that is a pretty accurate title for what is going on with me right now. a mix of things.
it’s july 1. which, aside from being slightly bizarre, is also terrifying, exciting, fun and much awaited-for all at once. bizarre because, holy crap, when did june happen? terrifying, because i will be in france in TWO months, to the day. exciting because i will be in france in TWO months, to the day. fun because i love summer and good things are happening. and much awaited-for because brier and bran are here, shawn gets here soon, and brandon gets here THIS MONTH!
i am also frustrated, because visa applications are convoluted and lengthy and annoying! plus, contacting anyone via email is almost certain to be a slow process. factor in another language, and it’s just…. yikes. today i uploaded my highschool diploma online. i am already accepted into the program, people!! why do you need all this now?! frustrated, because health insurance is expensive, and i already HAVE health insurance, but i have to purchase MORE because them’s the rules! frustrated, because flights are expensive, but not really the flight itself – does anyone realize how incredibly SMALL of an amount 20kilos is to travel to france for a year with!?!? or how expensive extra bags are??? urg. my patience, and my self-control, are being severely tested.
it should be noted that i don’t have a day off until two weeks from now (not a single day).
i like to be organized. i am often last-minute, but i hate being so. i like preparedness, and tidyness. streamlined, efficient (side note: this is why i love my mac). what ‘right now’ means is that i am being deprived of all those things as i work through the red-tape of applications and paperwork and prep-work. BUT it will all be worth it, right?
i need a vacation.